Silent Sadness

[Shanti]

Shanti walked slowly though the lands, she looked as if she were floating. The fae had no place to go and no place to stay. She had traveled everywhere she could reach looking for a home, but rejected by all because of her silence, though she spoke when needed they thought of her as a spy.

The one place Shanti dare not travel, Whiteback North, she despised all who lived there, although she was one she hated them. Shanti felt her legs begen to buckle, she quickly walked to a log and nearly collapsed. Shanti's legs were tired which was very belivable fro all of her traveling. She whined slightly trying to stand though it was no use.

[Telik]

A young male of three years walked down the path, head hung and eyes seeming to concentrate on the gtound before him as his yellow paw hit the ground and the muscles in his legs pushed him forward. He'd been in this place for about three days now, amd still didn't know where he was, who he was, other than his name of course, where he came from, and any of his past. It was all covered in shadow, and it was very frustrating for him.

Brown and white ears were flicked backwards in a thinking position as he silently walked by himself, no one at his side to talk to and no memories to call on to pass the time. Telik hated this, this constant pain of knowing nothing about himself and his history. Who were his parents and siblings? Were they alive still? Where had they gone?

These questions and more plagued his mind, and he finally sat down with a sigh. Why him? Why did he have to lose his memory? Young male just looked around, feeling helpless to himself. That's when he noticed there was someone else nearby Another wolf, it smelled like. Standing up, he walked for a few more minutes and found a black and white wolfess lying collapsed on the ground.

"Oh my goodness." These were the first words that slipped out of his maw as he looked at the fae "Are you alright miss?" He asked, bounding over and getting onto her level. Whoever she was, she was pretty. Did she know him?

[Shanti]

Shanti looked up at a handsome young male standing above her. She tried her best to smile. "I'm fine, just tired." Shanti managed to whisper to the stranger. The fae managed to hoist herself onto the log. Shanti sighed slightly and turned to face Telik once again.

Shanti could not pull her eyes away from this male, it was hard to believe another approached her worried. "I am Shanti, what is your name?" She spoke with a full tone, this was odd for her, but it was ok, she liked this male.

The wind blew slightly making her silver mane swish slowly. Shanti carefully took in the scent of the male, memorizing everything about him, she had not seen many wolves in this place called Haven and this might be a rare occasion.

[Telik]

Telik smiled, glad that she was only tired and not hurt. He sat dwon infront of her and watched her silver mane-like fur blow in the wind. Well that was cool, now wasn't it? Young tri-colored male shook his head so he could be able to focus better, even just by a little bit.

"Pleasure to meet you Shanti." He spoke with a normal tone, that of a not-so-average average-joe. "My name is Telik. Don't bother asking me about anthing else, because I have no idea where I came from and who I am other than my name." With this mentioned, his gaze returned to the dirt in a sad manner.

This wolfess seemed nice, and he did enjoy the company of another. Due to his amnesia, he did not realize that they were two different sub-species of a more ancient wolf. She was a Whiteback, or a Whiteback mix, and that would send questions in any other wolves mind. He, on the other hand, was Aryian.

"If it's not a problem, might I ask you why you're here?"

[Shanti]

Shanti smiled as he spoke his name, Telik, it was a very nice name and it fit him perfect. After analyzing him she realized that he was Aryian, Why is even talking to me? Aryians are supposed to hate me and my wretched bloodline. Shanti thought to herself, she then shook her head and decided not to worry about it.

Shanti raised her head as he said that he had no idea of his own past, lucky him, he didn't have to carry the burden of his past as she did. Shanti smiled and nodded at him.

"If it's not a problem, might I ask you why you're here?"

These words came to her as no surprise, everyone wanted to know this and as always she simply stated why. "I am searching for a home, and a new life. I am trying to forget of my past as well." Shanti spoke to him in her whisper once again, making her sound even more mysterious than usual.

[Telik]

The young male listened carefully to Shanti, eyes glistening as he looked at her beautiful form. Her black splotches were a nice contrast on her white and silver fur.

"I'm searching for a home, and a new life. I am trying to forget my past as well."

This came as a surprise to Telik. Why would you want to forget your past? "I understand trying to find a new life and home, but what I don't is why you want to forget your past. Something happened to me and I've forgotten everything I once knew and I hate it." He said aloud, cocking his head to the left. Why indeed. "Is your past so horrible you want to forget all about it?"

Telik probably wasn't helping her forget her past any, but he had to know why she wanted to forget. Not knowing anything about himself mirfed him, and he was ashamed of not knowing who he might've met.

[Shanti]

"I understand trying to find a new life and home, but what I don't is why you want to forget your past. Something happened to me and I've forgotten everything I once knew and I hate it."

Shanti glanced at Telik, she noticed that he was looking at her, no one ever looked at her which made a smile come across her face. She then turned to focus on his words. "Perhaps it is a good thing you do not know you past, it may be so bad that you mind flushed it out." this was just a simple theory though she wished that could happen to her.

"Is your past so horrible you want to forget all about it?"

This made Shanti's head snap, this was not something many asked of her. She sat stunned for a minute. "Yes, yes it is." she didn't mind people asking this it was just weird to hear it. In her mind Shanti was thinking; If you only knew.....

This wolf was different, Shanti felt a need to tell him why she hates whitebacks, and why she wishes to forget her past. Shanti looked into his eyes, the portals to his soul.

[Telik]

His firey orange eyes were different than most, and he noticed that Shanti was trying to see into them. What would she find in his eyes? Well, he wouldn't know. The only thing she might be able to tell was his personality bursting through. And what was his personality? He cared for and about others, mentally, emotionally and physically. He didn't like being alone, and the idea of being old with no one at his side filled him with fear. He was kind and gentle, and rather disproved of fighting and more often then not turned the other cheek.

But that wasn't all that was there. In the depths of those star-bright optics was a black void in which nothing could be seen other than shadowed figures and feel the tingling creep up your spine. There was no telling what lay in his past, for even he didn't know the danger and life threatening days he lived in, before he lost his memory.

It took him a few minutes before he could respond to her previous statement. "Even so, I would like to remember who these shadowed figures with their glaring eyes and bared teeth are, as well as who my parents and siblings are, where they are, what they look like and if they're still alive. I know nothing of my past, therefor I cannot very well tell if I was good or evil and if my personality changed at all when I was stricken with amnesia. I would like to know all this and more."

There he stopped for a moment or two, closing his eyes and looking at the ground before opening them and returning his gaze to the black and white wolfess. "I have no memories of family, and don't know who I've met. I have no happy memories, nor do I have bad ones. And for this reason I am depressed and frustrated, as well as ashamed of myself." With this all let out, he was glad he had someone to talk to so he could get his feelings about himself out. It was good to actually hear the words instead of thinking them for once.

Tri-colored male looked at the ground once more, now unable to look at Shanti for some reason.

[Shanti]

When Shanti finished reading Telik's eyes, his words struck. What if I truly did forget? Or what if I never knew, would I still be searching? For a different cause? These thoughts never occurred to Shanti before, she looked at Telik, deep in her thoughts. Her eyes no longer showed bared sadness for her own, but sadness for her new friend.

As Shanti looked at him she realized this is how people must feel around her. She hated this, she wished she could help her friend. Shanti lifted her paw and placed it on Telik's shoulder, Shanti's heart beat sped up, she had no idea why.

Now her mind was flooded with a million things she could say, but one of those stood out the most. This thought came to her as a surprise. No we just met! Besides we are completely different! Shanti wanted to tell him but she couldn't, she just looked down at him, eyes full of frustration

[Telik]

When Telik was finally able to look at Shanti again, he noticed it looked like she felt a pang of sadness. Was it for him? Shanti's white and black paw touched his shoulder, and his heart sped up. What was that about? There was a feeling somewhere in his chest area that something was going to lift him off his feet and send him floating in the sky. What the?

Shanti's eyes suddenly looked different, and it was a face he'd come to see alot when looking in the water. "I'm sorry for bringing it up. I can see I'm frustrating you." He said quietly, yet loud enough and solid enough to be heard by anyone that was withing a foot or two of them.

He'd said something wrong, but he didn't know what exactly. Was it everything he said, or just a few parts? Maybe he brought up a feeling inside of her or a memory she was trying to forget and it was upsetting her.

[Shanti]

Shanti smiled at Telik for worrying. "No thats not it at all...I ...just." Shanti lost the whisper and was now struggleing for words. She looked in his eyes again, this time hers filled with hope.

Shanti thought for one momment and she was ready to burst. "Maybe...if you travel with me, pehaps you coulds regain your memory, I would love the company." she threw in a small hint though her heart was telling her to just let him know her feelings.

Shanti now sat in a daze. That was it no more loss of words! Just get it out! Shanti smiled and whispered. "I like you, alot Telik." instead of hiding she nuzzeled him slightly. She pulled back and looked at him with her soulful eyes.

[Telik]

The still young Aryian wasn't surprised at this, though it still had an effect of what you'd call surprise when she revealed part of her feelings about him to him. His eyes widened a bit and he was at a loss for words.

"Maybe...if you travel with me, pehaps you coulds regain your memory, I would love the company."

A traveling partner huh? A smile crept across the gentle wolf's maw and he nodded. "I'd like the company too." He answered, bushy tail beginning to wag a little. At last, he'd found a friend that he could talk to and that could hopefully talk back to him about whatever, be it feelings or just how their day was.

And then she nuzzled him. It wasn't a hard-core nuzzle, but one a friend would engage in. For some reason, the nuzzle felt extrtemely odd and somewhat uncomfortable to him. Telik scooted away a bit and now looked shy and bashful. Why did that little nuzzle feel so awkward?

"I'm sorry." He said, looking at his yellow paws. "It isn't you. It just felt like I was doing something that might hurt someone else." It was hard to explain, but it felt like he was betraying someone. He didn't have a mate or family to betray, so why did it feel weird? Or, did he?

Telik's eyes grew wide in the horror that he might have a mate or a lover somewhere, and he quickly looked around to see if anyone was watching. He liked Shanti alot as well or just having met her.

[Shanti]

Shanti backed up a little as well she was not hurt by this she was surprised though. Shanti nodded. "It is Ok, I understand, but does that mean that we can no longer can travel together. If not I understand." Shanti lowered her head.

Shanti thought for a moment, I know I should have kept my mouth shut! We could have just been friends, I am so foolish. she wished she could turn back time, now it would be odd to travel if he knew her secret.

"I can go if you want." she stood up in case Telik said yes, Shanti looked up at the sky wondering why these to had such hard lives, and why Shanti felt this way when they were so different. They each wanted what the other had. Shanti looked back at Telik with an apologetic look.

[Telik]

"No, we can still travel together." He said, standing up and looking at her with pleading eyes. He knew they were both different personality wise, but they could work with that. He knew nothing of species, and that didn't matter to him.

But what he didn't understand was why she felt that he thought they couldn't travel together. When she stood incase of him agreeing to not travel together, he padded up to her. "No, don't go. I-I don't want to be alone..." Telik looked away from her, the fear of being by himself forever seeming to envelope his mind.

[Shanti]

Shanti looked at Telik as he walked up to stop her form leaving. Shanti smiled, she was glad she would no longer be alone. She was especialy glad that they could still stay together after her little out burst.

Shanti sat down again "I dont want to be alone either." Shanti's eyes shifted to the ground. After a few moments of thought she turned back to Telik. "Where shall we move onto next? Though I have no intentions of leaving right away." Shanti knew they should plan for the future, the most important thing to both of them right now.